Shrugging Off the Shackles

For some time now I've been trying, rather unsuccessfully to get a post up on this blog. I gave myself several reasons for it... no time, stifled creativity, fatigue etc. But it was only a few minutes ago that the real reason struck me, and to be honest, it quite embarrassed me, in my own eyes!

Ever since the idea grew on me, I've always maintained that it's important never to let any ideals remained unquestioned in your mind. The ones that are worth adhering to are the ones that pass the tests of your own reasoning and inspection. They are the thoughts that last you for lifetimes and mark you with a distinct individuality...

One of my ideals is to resist any sort of ideas that limit free-thinking on my part, or that stop me from progressing...and recently I allowed myself to fall unwittingly into just one such trap, which is what prevented me from posting anything on LifeStrings for such a long time!

For some reason, I convinced myself that there was a particular post that I just HAD to put up before I got down to writing anything else. I tried for weeks on end to write it, but while this post is literally spurting from my fingertips, I could not get past two paragraphs on that one... I kept telling myself that I'd get back to it sometime, that it was probably just the workload in the office or a small writer's block that was coming in my way. It was neither of the two... it was just my subconscious bonding to an idea that I never really liked in the first place! Now that I look at it, the topic that I chose for that post, was likely to merit nothing more than a mundane narrative of reality. A movement from 'then I did this', to 'then I did that'...which is so powerfully opposed to everything that LifeStrings stands for. This is a space in which I share my feelings with you...deeper thoughts, insights expressed spontaneously and almost all completed and published in the same day that I thought of them. The mundane has little scope for expression here! This is a place where I let go of all the "shoulds" that don't make me feel good about adhering to them...how ironic therefore, that a little "should" was the cause of my long hiatus from the blogosphere! lol!

I never HAD to marry myself to that regressive idea, but I did so sub-consciously, probably because I thought that I could make it fit the theme of this blog, somehow. But that's exactly where I went wrong! You see, I have never before had to "make" something fit LifeStrings...it always came naturally, quickly. It either fit or it didn't...and if it didn't, that was OK. This time, I was trying to force something to fit this blog, which is precisely what made my mind falter.

Let me take this opportunity therefore, to affirm that I never want to be in such a state again...where the movement of my mind is restricted by any kind of influence, from within or without. I never want my inner ear to be unable to hear the notes and chords in Life's music. And I want to be ever-attuned to the little things that make big differences.

I'm back and LifeStrings will soon have more on it pages! :)

God Bless!